Looking back on the last two years of life
*Divorce
*start completely over with next to nothing, live on my own for the first time.
*get a real full time job.
*raise my boys
*heart ripped out and stomped on shredded by someone that I thought was a good person.
Mostly I spent this time winging it!
*car blew up when I could least afford a new one.
*mom got sick
*got in car wreck
*death of my mother
Thats a lot to face down! BUT I did it and most of the time with some flair! So lets look at what I do have.
*A new car that I can mostly afford
*three awesome, wonderful well adjusted little boys who keep me grounded in the moment
*Two jobs that allow me to be with my boys for the most part when they are home, keep a roof over our heads, chocolate near at hand and shoes at our feet. Look at that two of my favorite things in one sentence!
*an amazing group of friends and back up support that I have met in the last year!
*A wonderful relationship with my father, watching him be human and cry is the hardest thing I have done but being able to see it all and hold hands through it all is truly a blessing.
*being close to my sisters.
*an amazing boyfriend who has shown me that I deserve to be totally and completely happy! Who is the mish to my mash.
And what do I have to look forward to?
*a very soon move in with said boyfriend. A new step forward that I believe is going to be amazing.
*back to school maybe?
*calmer more peaceful days
*watching my boys flourish
*slowing down with the two job thing?
*spring is coming eventually!
*continuing new hobbies even tho I am not great at them (Golf could be the death of me!)
*finding my own path and dancing along it like no one is watching!
Yes my friends, life is crazy, hectic and we all wish for the easy button. But I chose, this year, to fill my own glass!
